the gist

I'm not normal. I think you'll begin to see that when you start reading.
Normal girls my age are caught up in their new boyfriend or pair of frye boots. But me? I'm caught up in the grace that saved me from eternal destruction and the Man who gave me that grace. To put it simply, I'm crazy about my God.
And that's not normal.

Behind every action, lies motivation. So what's my motivation?
I want to provide everyone with access to see that God loves them. I want people to know the thoughts and conflicts that cloud my naive mind...


...and I like to blog.

As you read these letters, Candice is you. I am writing these letters to you- whoever you may be.

So when you see her name, say your name.

Monday, September 27, 2010

sunday september 26 2010

{paul:timothy::me:you}
dear candice,
"i hope to come to you soon but i am writing these things to you so that if i delay, you may know how one ought to behave in the household of God." {1 timothy 3:14-15}
paul, who wrote 1st and 2nd timothy along with many other books of the Bible, and i have alot in common. for starters, we both are/were disciples of Jesus Chirst. we also wrote letters to younger people who we didnt have easy access to talk to- me to you and paul to timothy. both of us have published our letters- me on a blog and paul in the Bible. i admire pauls increadible insight and wisdomin his writing to timothy. i only wish i could give you such great advice and encouragement as paul gave to timothy.  so although im not an expert- im far from one- when it comes to giving life changing advice, i just like to share with you and whoever else reads this that my God is so good and so amazing.
i have been reading through 1st and 2nd timothy and i personaly am talking away alot from what paul writes. and i compleatly agree with everything he says. like in 2 timothy 2:22 when he writes, "flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness along with those who call on the Lord with a pure heart." thats one of my favorites.
"oh timothy [candice], guard the deposit entrusted yo you. avoid the irrelovent babble and cointradictions of what is falsely called "knowlge," for by professing it, some have swerved from the faith. grace be with you." {1 timothy 6:20-21}
i love you.
love,
sara

Saturday, September 18, 2010

wednesday september 15 2010

{no more fear}
dear candice,
tonight in my youth group we talked about what we are afraid of when it comes to sharing the Gospel with people. in every fear that we responded with, they all sounded the same. we are worried that people wont think we are cool enough. my fear is that my reputaion will be ruined jsut because people think im so deferent from them. now, yeah i compleatly understand that im not normal in any way shape or form, but still, i want friends. i want to have someone in the world who dosnt think im a compleate freak! but im a fool. i am a fool for my God. after i really thought about it, if im not willing to sacrifice my reputation for the Truth, then im saying to God, "im too cool for you." if im not willing to sacrifice my looks for the Truth, then im saying to God, "i look to good for you." if im not willing to sacrifice anything for the Truth, then im saying to God, "i already have everything i ever wanted, thank you very much." wow. im a jerk.
it takes alot of faith to be able to tell God, "i dont want my reputation, looks, or anything for that matter. its all YOURS. take it all. You are all i need." its a hard thing to do... mind you that God dosnt call us to do easy things.
"only a fool would want to chant a dead man's name." -nicole nordeman
i love you.
love,
sara

saturday september 11 2010

{missing peace}
dear candice,
this wold is such an evil, malicious, vortex of terror. but on the bright side, God is still faithful. i think its amazing that, as humans, we always have to fight with each other. we always want to be right. we always want to prove that our way is the best way. and i have come to find that we will do almost anything to get what we want.
its almost like fighting (not necessarily "war" but just even just debate) is a natural thing. it seems like that because of how society has turned us against each other. society has taught us that we deserve whatever we want whenever we want. (but honestly as sinners, the only thing we deserve is death.) in America today, it has become compleatly futile to settle for what we want. if we want something we will get it...and no one will stop us. if we dont want something, we will brutaly shove it back in the face of whoever dared give it to us and throw a fit about how this isnt what we wanted.
Jesus came to bring peace on earth (hence the Prince of Peace). but we fail misrebly if we try to live in peace in a broken world. it just dosnt work that way.
i pray that you would find peace in the Father alone.
i love you.
love,
sara

Thursday, September 2, 2010

thursday september 2 2010

{speaking up}
Dear Candice,
Last night I was asked to speak at my church to the entire high school group about what God is doing in my life and what the Great Commission means to me. I thought about what I was going to say for a while. I started out by writing out something to say. But then I realized that there’s not really a point in planning anything because God could change it all in a moment’s notice… or in no notice at all. So I started off by talking about you. About how you, all the other kids at the projects, and most importantly, God have changed me. I also talked about the Great Commission and what God has been saying to me about it. Jesus used three main verbs in the Great Commission- go, make disciples, and baptize. In my opinion, Jesus means that we shouldn’t stop….ever, that we should share our testimonies to inspire people to be disciples and follow Jesus, and to wash them with the Gospel without hitting them over the head with a Bible. This is about all I remember saying because I just let God do the talking through what I said.
I got to meet with McCall right before youth last night. We had a super fancy dinner at sonic. She, along with myself, has been called by God to step out be different. Together we are uniting to turn this world all the way around… maybe even upside down, inside out, and around the corner. God has defiantly not called us to do things that are safe. At all. What so ever. But we, as Matthew, are getting up, dropping everything, and following Jesus. This is me, and McCall taking up our crosses and being willing to die for life. So seriously, watch out- we ARE dangerous. In the words of Caetlyn, I am becoming the most dangerous girl to ever walk the halls of Brentwood High.
Here I go to set the world on fire.
I love you.
Love,
sara

thursday august 26 2010

{age is just a number}
Dear Candice,
I’m itching to come back to see you. I will come back- I promise.
Last night I went to youth group just like I do every Wednesday. But last night was different- something hit me. It was this flood of feelings of power. I can step out and be the change that people don’t expect to see in a teenage girl. Adults grossly underestimate the power of a highschooler. Candice, last night it dawned on me that I have the power to revolutionize and completely turn around the way people look at teenagers.
God is calling me to step out and be different. But honestly, He’s calling everyone to step out and be different- I’m just obeying. We make so many excuses to try to convince God that we aren’t the “right one.” I think the most common excuse is, “I’m just a kid.” This is exactly what Jeremiah told God in Jeremiah 1. It was simple- God told him to go, he said I’m too young. And God replied with this: “do not say I am only a youth. For wherever I send you, you shall go and whatever I command you to, you shall say. This is how we all make excuses, but God knows that we’re only kids. And I believe He’s calling the kids to be different for a reason. I love how Jesus put it in Matthew. There were kids coming to Jesus but the adults were holding them back. But Jesus simply said, “Let the children come to me.” He went on to say that everyone should have faith like a child.
Wow.
I love you,
Love,
sara