wednesday october 20 2010

{drop everything}
dear candice,
i miss you so much. i know i sound like a broken record but i really do miss you. and i WILL come back. you changed my life forever.
candice, im at a rough place in my life right now. im so confused about what God is doing in my life. trusting that Gods plan will work out and is a better plan than mine is soooooo much easier said than done. but still i find myself afraid. im ready to take up my cross and DIE for what i believe, but still there is something that im afraid of. my reputation and what other people think of me seems to be keeping me from doing what my Creator comanded me to do. i hate this feeling so much. i know that when Jesus said that we should drop everything to follow Him, He didnt mean to drop most things and keep more important things like our family or our friends. when Jesus said that we have to drop everything, he ment EVERYTHING. and it may be hard, but if He gave up His life because He loves us pittiful sinners so much, then i think that we should give up the "important" things to be able to obey the One who saved us from death. but Jesus said that whoever wants to save his or her life, must first lose it. im putting what other people think about me behind me and im ready to be laughed at while i take up my cross to die. im ready to be ridiculed because of what i believe. im ready to die in order to live.
so here and now im putting the past and what other people think of me behind me, and im taking up my cross to die.
i love you.
love,
sara