monday, july 5 2010

{long 2 weeks}
dear candice,


over 2 weeks and i still miss you. im still praying for you and i still love you.

im so tired. i just wanna lay down and take a break from life. you know that feeling where you just really need to be by yourself and dont want anything or anyone to bother you? well thats exactly how i feel...but 10 times worse. i almost want to go throw my phone in a river. i mean it seems like a pretty good idea to me. it sure would save me quite a bit of stress. i honestly thought that this kind of drama only went on in tv shows.

anyway, all that to say, so many things, including interactions with other people, get in the way of me living my dream free life of pursuing one thing and one thing only: my relationship with Christ.

in the book of James in the Bible talks about how what we say can really hurt other people. ill be the first to tell you that its really easy to read somthing in the Bible that was written some 2,000 years ago but when it acctully happens to you, you really realize that God wasnt just talking about what people said and did 2,000 years ago, but that even in 2010 we are still human. people still just let their mouths overflow with things to say.

duct tape will do great things- like maybe say shut someone up. i wish i had a roll of duct tape at hand all day long so that i could just wrap someones head up when they say somthing that i dont like. unfortunatly, life dosnt work that way...but i wish it did. let me tell you- its so unbelieveably hard to have self-control about somthing that makes you want to just scream non stop. but still you have to try to stay strong.

all i know is when its all said and done Jesus still died a painful death for you and me and He will ALWAYS reign.

stay strong.

i love you.

love,

sara